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Jelly Roll, rock

all the pieces seem to fall into their places

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life sucks , this whole year sucked, everyone died or broke up with each other, the hurricane destroyed the wonderful rockaways, i have barely any motivation to shower, go grocery shopping, or pretend to be okay. A part of my soul was removed and i feel like ill never be happy again. 4 years and you just change your mind, decide that you arent in love anymore? fucking dick. every day my heart hurts, every day there is a sinking, sad feeling that dave wont be in my life ever again after we move apart. It makes me feel pathetic, desperate and needy. My dignity is nonexistent. "we'll always be best friends" are you serious with that shit? we were never JUST FRIENDS. we dated, banged, and fell in love ( at least, I did). It won't be possible for me, at least not for a great amount of time. So, be well aware that you will not see me at all after we move. you did this.

“Trust your heart if the seas catch fire, live by love though the stars walk backward." -ee cummings

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got a kitty, named it Pizza

obtained penny flames rough sex instructional video

finished the semester (technically last final on Sat)

put up some nice white lights which have improved my mood. winter drags me down a bit: less sunlight energy, cold air, lethargic feeling. But, it helps. And I am trying to fill some free time i have with exercise. Blah. I hate the monotony of traditional exercise--the same machines, same jogging and staring at the same thing, etc. It makes it very unappealing. I like the exercise of bopping around at a concert or playing manhunt in the streets of staten island, hahahah. I think that urban playground movement organizes large games of manhunt and flag...i want to go this summer if they have more.

Still havent gone christmas shopping. Ive had only a few days free this week :(

Woke up at 2 pm today. Felt like a waste, and had too many gory nightmares to enjoy it. Dammit!

Daves got the sims3, and im (re)addicted

I kind of want to leave new york!

Babysitting my niece tomorrow! I'm glad i get to see her, she was sick on her birthday so we didn't have an official "!st birthday". But i think theyre having one after new years so im excited for that

And I need to get to sleep but I won't be able to :(

read it, memorize it, do it.
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"No relationship is worth you giving up your own happiness to maintain it. I realize that being a strong person is not always easy; but I believe that it is the ONLY way to live and to love."

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I wanna lose like 20 lbs. How do i go about this?

for one, eliminate fast food and takeout. Every since i went back to eating meat (after about 7 months) ive been scarfing down big macs like its nobodys business. that's kind of gross because it's not even real food, and it's flat. unlike my stomach. The only take out i eat usually is thai food, which is freaking deelicious but lets face it, covered in grease and other nasty shit. Im ready

yankees going to the series. Im a born mets fan (queens what) but im glad someones representing new york


okok BYE

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i need to write again

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what a great day

today

with dave!

man man
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You stung me bad,
what can I do
But leave the stinger in
so I won't forget you

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So, Dave and I have been together for a year. It was around this time last march that I couldn't understand WHY we weren't a couple--yeah, we were "together" in a sense, and saw each other and hung out and had weekend-long sleepovers, but I refused to call him my boyfriend. I had been going through the whole "just broke up with long term boyfriend and too scared to get another one" syndrome, and figured we wouldnt get serious at all. I mostly thought that he was a rebound, and was in complete denial of my feelings. Months later, I couldn't take it and I wanted to be his girlfriend and asked him out before he asked me. Hah!
And I wouldn't have guessed we'd be sharing an apartment by now, but we are and it's so good.
Throughout the time I was so down and so depressed and hateful of myself, he raised my self esteem, he told me things I never believed when i heard them from anyone else. I trust him with all my soul, and I feel like if any two people are right for each other, it's us. It's mental, it's being able to make fun of cancer and not have to worry that he'll think it's rude. He is SO good to me and brings home candy bars or wind up chickens that lay bubblegum eggs, whichever is cooler. I look at him and melt into a puddle of goo because I don't understand how someone can be that cute and not exist as a cartoon. I love how good he is for my mind, how perfect it is when i wake up and the first thing i hear him say is "Iloveyousomuch" while I'm getting ready and he turns back over and goes to sleep. I love his curly hair. I've got to hold on to this one--hes a keeper
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"do you really have to pee in a girls mouth to make babies?"
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Oh, I'm just trying to get by...

I always feel like I want to get out there!

I'm sick of taking classes that bore me. I just try to pass them by doing the bare minimum of work (papers, written homework, etc), but I definitely DO NOT read or keep up with the class materials. I just dont care enough. But I do need to get these requirements done with and start on my major. It sucks Dave and I couldn't take production this semester.

However, I've signed up for summer classes(1 month total): Photography and Fiction 1 Workshop. I'm actually excited. It's going to be fun, I might actually learn something.

I think I've got a severe case of CABIN FEVER. This winter is just not letting up and I'm disgusted.

Dude, Intervention is the best show ever! Dave and I watch it whenever we can, including OnDemand.

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